Not Gonna Lie
I wish I could say that the run today was a success, but it definitely wasn’t. Started out great but two miles in my knee (IT band) started hurting. Not to the point where I had to stop, but just enough to really annoy and worry me. Really, two miles!? I am barely warmed up. I had only planned on doing three anyway but kinda lost track and ended up running two out and then turning around. Trying to take it extra slow, which didn’t exactly happen but I felt like I was walking. Then at mile three my Shuffle died and I had no music to finish out the run with. Not a happy camper today. I’m sure I looked like I was pissed too because everyone seemed to be giving me dirty looks. Maybe it was my bad attitude. I was ready to yell at some nasty dude too, who was walking without his shirt off (not someone who should have been), and sucking on his cigarette right in the running path where people have to run by and breath in his disgusting smoke. That’s a whole nother story and I could go off for hours on that one. Maybe another time. And yes, my hot workout outfit is complete with crappy old white T-shirt with about 20 holes in it. HOT!
No more sugar-coating everything. I
think know I’ve been acting like things are a little better than they are. Really some days I just want to tell people… ‘give me a break, look what I went through the last two years!’. Most others around me, as it’s been from the beginning get to move on with their lives and don’t have to think about Cancer 24/7. I definitely got a break for a while and got to have fun, take my mind off of the hard stuff. But now events and images from this time last year have been coming back to me. And it definitely annoys me that people act as though I should be living a ‘normal’ life by now and functioning in my daily life just fine. Yeah… it’s called not being able to stay in bed all day because you actually have to live. Otherwise that’s what I’d be doing some days.
So there it is folks… tell it like it is. I bet everyone is ready for some sugar now 🙂
WORKOUT – yoga, weights, 4 miles