See you After SD

So I think I’m going to be taking a little hiatus from blogging for a while. A shame since all 237 2 people who actually read this will be disappointed. I feel like I need to work a lot of things out in my life right now. There are some major decisions that need to be made and some major, major ass kicking on my part and motivation that needs to take place. It’s officially been a full year since I’ve had all these feelings – coming and going but still – a whole year is a tragic waste (and I know Harv would not be happy with me). But I guess that’s what I needed. Now I’m SO over this. I kept saying all along make it through the year – not realizing that the hard year wouldn’t start until 9ish months later. So there – I gave myself a year to be depressed and sad and not do anything or care about anything – blah blah, the list goes on.

Anyway… I’m feeling very defeated by everything lately. And sometimes you just have to surrender. Take a break and start fresh. So until I’m back and feeling like myself. Defeat – no more. 2012 (the first half) – FU. July 13th 2012 – Game on!

Heading out to SD tomorrow, Friday the 13th. As Mike says… come out and SEE San Diego…

Instead of just running through it…

Peace out cub scouts… see you soon…

PS- gone, doesn’t mean gone entirely… I’ll be all over Instagram and Twitter 🙂 apey_lynn

xo ALW


7 responses

  1. I’m extremely disappointed! Wish you the best and please take care 🙂

    July 12, 2012 at 12:23 pm

    • Thanks so much! I’ll be back soon… and better than before!

      July 12, 2012 at 4:27 pm

  2. Marta

    I will miss hearing from you in the blog (I read every psot) but totally understand! Hear for ya… wish I could help but know I can’t change things in the ways that would really matter. Have a great trip!!! Love ya:)

    July 12, 2012 at 1:12 pm

  3. Kim

    Good luck in your search. Try not to be too hard on yourself – you lost your life’s partner and you didn’t even get the dozen years with him that I had with Carl before losing him. Yes, life does move on and yes, it is really hard, but you will find your new “normal” and, at some point, will notice that you’ve managed to find your footing on this new path.

    When I started with TNT, I was going for Paris (I figured it would be a one & done thing, so why not Paris – funny, right?!) and I promised my son David that he could come with me. (He’s the youngest & was the one that was home through everything.) When I tore my ITB & couldn’t do Paris, we planned a week in Negril where I’ve been before. One of my friends that lives there took me to a spring & caverns that is sacred to the Rastas. There’s a place in the caverns where they believe that if you make a true wish, the universe will hear it. I went into the caverns thinking that I knew what my wish would be (to find someone to share my life with), but when I reached that place in the caverns and made my wish, it wasn’t what I thought it would be. I wished that I’d be present and aware enough to notice when what I really want is standing right in front of me. We came home from that trip and my life changed again, in a wonderful way this time.

    So, April, I hope that you find a place of peace within you where you can be open and present to notice when what you want (whatever that is) shows up. And know that sometimes what you want doesn’t look like what you thought it would.

    Hugs & strength!

    July 12, 2012 at 1:28 pm

    • Kim, thank you so much for sharing. You just made me cry! In a good and inspirational way. Thank you so so much. I hope I have the same type of experience on my trip.

      July 12, 2012 at 4:29 pm

  4. I know the defeated feeling very well. I’m opposite though, the blogging world is what puts the smile on my face. Good luck! See you back soon!

    July 12, 2012 at 8:10 pm

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