Vivere Disce, Cogita Mori

Learn to Live, Remember Death. Something I’ve learned a lot about in the past few years, and what I strive to do in my daily life. It’s amazing that you can lose yourself in something that you love, yet find yourself at the same time. This is what RUNNING has done for me. Truly saved me, cured me, molded me, motivated me, surprised, hurt me, worried me. Created pride, grit, happiness, inspiration.

a reason to breath.


Little about me : (April, Apey, Ape). Philly girl at heart – yet that may be changing soon? I started this blog last year. November 30th, 2010 my life changed forever and would never be the same. At the time I didn’t really understand why but now I am starting to see the path more clearly. This has been the place to get all my feelings out in the open without having to talk about them. Sometimes I worry too much about hurting other people, or what others may think. But going through the hardest point in my life, I needed an outlet. Deep thoughts, stupid things, anxiousness, funny stuff. Read it or don’t… it’s out there and it feels a lot better that way.

Starting my life over after thinking I had it all figured out…

In Memory of H.E.F Jr. Aug 8th 1974- Nov 30th 2010

 Harvey and I were married on January 31st, 2009. Contagious smile, thirst for life, making the best of everything. An attitude towards life that you could carry with you and made you wanting more. How could you not fall in love with this guy? I never knew how to live life until I met Harv.

Just after our first wedding anniversary Harvey was diagnosed with Leukemia. Our lives changed in an instant. After a battle of ups and downs and way more then I can explain here. Harvey passed away on November 30th 2010 after his 10 month fight with Leukemia.

I have learned a lot in the past year (and some) and have been able to live my life in a way that I never thought possible. Cancer changes you, and dealing with life and death head on is something that will shape my life forever. No one my age should ever have to go through what I went through and I feel that I’ve been given a gift, almost an insight on what life really means and is all about. Harvey is gone but never forgotten and the lesson learned is greater than anyone will ever know. Life is tough and throws you some really awful things sometimes, but you have to learn how to take them and spin them into motivation and determination. Grit, strength, toughness and a true thirst for life! 

 – Harv’s Journey

Through all of this (post hospital days) Running has been an outlet for me and I have become passionate about it. Lately I have found myself at my most joyful point in my day when I am running. Not everyone is given their health and sometimes it is taken away, so to be able to use your body and push it to what it is truly capable of doing is an amazing thing. I am and have always been a distance runner. I just LOVE the miles!


11 responses

  1. Marta Angelastro

    April, you are an amazing woman. It is a privilege and a honor to have you in my life. So proud of your running, strength and courage. You are an inspiration to me!!!!!!!! I always knew when Harvey found the right woman she would be absolutly perfect:) and your are. May the days ahead bring peace, joy and love always. Love Marta (aka Mom.)

    June 12, 2011 at 1:34 pm

  2. I was awarded the honor of the Liebster Award. I’m passing it on to you!


    March 25, 2012 at 5:00 pm

    • thanks!! you rock!

      March 28, 2012 at 1:34 pm

      • No, Running Rocks 😉 ! haha, thank you!

        March 28, 2012 at 2:58 pm

  3. April, what an amazing story. My uncle passed last month from his battle with cancer, leaving my aunt alone and wondering what life will be about now that she has lost her best friend. I can’t imagine loosing my spouse. Thank you for honestly sharing your journey. In life everyone has struggles and hardships and the more we share them the more we encourage others. Thanks for encouraging me:-)

    June 6, 2012 at 1:33 pm

    • your welcome!! and i’m sorry to hear about your uncle. i hope that i can help and inspire people in some way and it feels good to share and get it all out there. glad it helped 🙂

      June 6, 2012 at 3:14 pm

  4. Even though I’ve been reading your blog for a while, I didn’t know this story. I know he’s looking down from heaven during your runs.

    June 25, 2012 at 12:48 pm

    • thanks! yeah it makes running so much more peaceful and meaningful and really brings out the joy in it.

      June 25, 2012 at 9:38 pm

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  6. Hello April,
    Just a quick message to ask if you would be interested in a ‘mutual’ following on twitter. I am currently following you now and am awaiting for your follow-back if you indeed decide to do so… (#FYI I do RT’s for all #Triathletes #Cyclists #UltraRunners & #Marathoners who follow me on Twitter and have something important they want mentioned…)

    All the very best for the rest of 2012 and beyond April. Look forward to hearing from you…


    August 11, 2012 at 10:39 am

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