Vivere Disce, Cogita Mori
Learn to Live, Remember Death. Something I’ve learned a lot about in the past few years, and what I strive to do in my daily life. It’s amazing that you can lose yourself in something that you love, yet find yourself at the same time. This is what RUNNING has done for me. Truly saved me, cured me, molded me, motivated me, surprised, hurt me, worried me. Created pride, grit, happiness, inspiration.
– a reason to breath.
Little about me : (April, Apey, Ape). Philly girl at heart – yet that may be changing soon? I started this blog last year. November 30th, 2010 my life changed forever and would never be the same. At the time I didn’t really understand why but now I am starting to see the path more clearly. This has been the place to get all my feelings out in the open without having to talk about them. Sometimes I worry too much about hurting other people, or what others may think. But going through the hardest point in my life, I needed an outlet. Deep thoughts, stupid things, anxiousness, funny stuff. Read it or don’t… it’s out there and it feels a lot better that way.
Starting my life over after thinking I had it all figured out…
In Memory of H.E.F Jr. Aug 8th 1974- Nov 30th 2010
Harvey and I were married on January 31st, 2009. Contagious smile, thirst for life, making the best of everything. An attitude towards life that you could carry with you and made you wanting more. How could you not fall in love with this guy? I never knew how to live life until I met Harv.
Just after our first wedding anniversary Harvey was diagnosed with Leukemia. Our lives changed in an instant. After a battle of ups and downs and way more then I can explain here. Harvey passed away on November 30th 2010 after his 10 month fight with Leukemia.
I have learned a lot in the past year (and some) and have been able to live my life in a way that I never thought possible. Cancer changes you, and dealing with life and death head on is something that will shape my life forever. No one my age should ever have to go through what I went through and I feel that I’ve been given a gift, almost an insight on what life really means and is all about. Harvey is gone but never forgotten and the lesson learned is greater than anyone will ever know. Life is tough and throws you some really awful things sometimes, but you have to learn how to take them and spin them into motivation and determination. Grit, strength, toughness and a true thirst for life!
Through all of this (post hospital days) Running has been an outlet for me and I have become passionate about it. Lately I have found myself at my most joyful point in my day when I am running. Not everyone is given their health and sometimes it is taken away, so to be able to use your body and push it to what it is truly capable of doing is an amazing thing. I am and have always been a distance runner. I just LOVE the miles!