It is!? I think… you’re in there somewhere. Yep you are, thankfully. I have been discovering myself again and thankful to find that I’m still here. It’s been a while since I’ve felt this good — for real, no pretending or forcing it. A really long, long time. Longer than the past year and longer than the past two. More like 3 – check it. September 2009 — and the worry creeped in from there. So yes, yes, YES… it’s been a while, my friends. Anyway… I could go on and on about that. Probably about 18 pages worth “FRONT AND BACK!” — still one of my fav scenes.
There she is. A little city, a little country, all goofy. I don’t care what anyone says. I think I’m gonna start a new trend with workout tights and cute flowy tops. Besides — who doesn’t want to be able to go right from yoga to the bar?
WORKOUT – elliptical 30mins, bike 30mins, HOT yoga
Seriously obsessed with THIS SONG!!! – Love the video too. God, I am such a sucker…
And really weird I had a dream last night that I was married with 3 kids! Um, borderline nightmare? Hah, jk… it was actually a good dream. Since my life is pretty boring at the moment all I have to talk about are my weird dreams, Starbucks… and my juicer? Wow, I need a life STAT.
Train – Marry Me
Feel like I’ve had long enough with you
Forget the world now we won’t let them see
But there’s one thing left to doNow that the weight has lifted
Love has surely shifted my way
Today and every day
If I ever get the nerve to say
Hello in this cafe
Say you will
Say you will
Together can never be close enough for me
Feel like I am close enough to you
You wear white and I’ll wear out the words I love you
And you’re beautiful
Now that the wait is over
And love and has finally shown her my way
Today and every day
If I ever get the nerve to say hello in this cafe
Say you will
Say you will
You’ll always be
Happy by my side
I promise to
Sing to you
When all the music dies
And marry me
Today and everyday
If I ever get the nerve to say hello in this cafe
Say you will
Say you will
Today is such a gorgeous day! Imagine everyday being like this ie. San Diego. I had a great morning and really really great session today at my therapist. I know I’ve said/thought this a million times in the past few months. But things really are starting to come together and make a ton of sense and I love it. I’m literally seeing changes before my eyes. I basically have been talking to Dr. Ell and figuring out my own problems. I go in there with things already figured out, which is amazing and great and I’m realizing how strong and determined I am even though it might not seem like it sometimes.
Plus it never hurts to have Moms and Friends remind you of this…
WORKOUT – WHaaaatt!? I actually worked out today. Yes – 30 mins bike and weights. Yay feels good, until my hip starts to hurt again and my chiro yells at me at my appt today. Just testing out the waters… little at a time.
Weird dream the other night about Frogs and Toads. It was pretty realistic too… one of those where you wake up and wonder if it really happened. I think I was kissing frogs or eating them – (I won’t judge you if you stop reading my blog forever at this point). My psyche is F-ed right now. Too much to think about. Anyway… so I think they were toads in my dream but everyone was calling them frogs and they were all over the place in the woods and I was trying to catch them.
So here’s what I found…
To see a frog in your dream represents a potential for change or the unexpected. The frog may be a prince in disguise and thus signify transformation, renewal or rebirth. Alternatively, the frog symbolizes uncleanness or fertility.
To see frogs leaping in your dream indicate your lack of commitment. You have a tendency to jump from one thing to another. Alternatively, it may suggest that you are taking major steps toward some goal. It parallels your progress.
To dream that you are catching a frog signifies your carelessness concerning your health.
To hear the sounds of a frog in your dream indicates that you have not accomplished what you wanted.
To eat a frog in your dream represents some unsavory or unpleasant task that you need to perform. If you swallow a whole frog in your dream, then there is something that you need to do or say, that is literally difficult to swallow. Consider the phrase “a frog in your throat” to suggest that you are unable to speak. You feel you have lost your voice.
To see a toad in your dream suggests that you are trying to hide your true Self. You need to let the beauty from within shine through.
To kill a toad in your dream signifies that you will be criticized for your decision
Who the hell knows really but it makes sense for what’s been going on in my life lately. Wow and reading through it seriously makes SO much sense!! Too much detail to explain so I’ll just leave it at that.
BUT – dreams mean a lot and I believe that for sure. And yes some of it could have come from the fact that I was literally kissing this dude…
… a few weeks ago. But after reading all this it really brings things together.
Soooo… I think I might be officially crazy. But we all knew that already. My decision making skills haven’t exactly been the best lately and I seem to just jump into things feet first without really thinking things through. So when the opportunity to run RnR San Diego with TNT came about again this year, I jumped right on that! However, I woke up last night at 3am – (right on time) contemplating my life… thinking and worrying about random things as usual. Well, at least I got some stuff figured out and can move on today. One of the 20 gillion things flying through my pea brain was that I should have signed up for THIS GUY instead of THIS GUY. Why… ? Lots of reasons. One being, why not run a marathon that I haven’t done before. And lots of other junk that you don’t want to hear about. Since a few things changed in the last couple weeks I decided to see if I could switch. Luckily the team at TNT rock it and let me be a psycho and change my race. Thanks, guys! My new fundraising website will be up and running next week, and everything is exactly the same except I’ll be running one week later and I won’t be flying out to Cali but driving up to NY. Also
another my main reason for changing is rumor has it everyone drinks champagne and jumps in the lake post race. You know this girl can’t pass up post marathon bevies.
Miami – gotta LOVE margaritas in a plastic cup… at an Eagles game.
Myrtle Beach – one of many for two days following…
Chicago – Oops… this was actually before. Lesson Learned.
San Diego – let the party begin.
So I was looking at my race bibs and I realized that all of them have a 13 in them. Or at least a ‘3 and a ‘1. Which would make ’13’ in numerical terms. If you are thinking about all that numerology stuff. This made me think about the number 13 and how it’s played a weird role in my life, and why I like it and have always, even though some people hate it. Where does that come from anyway?
One way this worries me… ? Now that I’m aware of it I’m probably going to freak out if my next race number doesn’t have a “13” in there somewhere. Add that to my list of marathon paranoia’s now! Good job, Ape.
PS – today is the 13th.
WORKOUT – JM, 3 miles
Marathon number two done and feeling pretty good. Overall – I’m really, really happy with my time. PR is always good. But cutting about 40 mins off your last race time is even better. Especially when you weren’t fully trained, ate crappy food and gained weight over taper.
Like I’ve mentioned before I was a crazy person the past few
weeks months. I’ve been dying to run another marathon since the second that I finished San Diego and it finally happened. I feel a little relief. I honestly think I was so nervous that maybe I wasn’t meant to run another one. With the injury and Philly not happening, again. How was I supposed to love this so much when I’ve only ever done one?
Anyway… off to Myrtle Beach on Friday at 4:00am. Nervous about flying, what I packed… the fact that I couldn’t have a pre-flight drink (not cool). Luckily it was the shortest flight ever and we were in SC by 8am. Just in time to have coffee on the beach.
Not being able to drink at brunch didn’t help either (ok, starting to sound like an alcoholic). I think If I was more confident about my training and had another race or two under by belt I would have felt better about drinking a little bit the past few weeks and not have been so obsessive about everything. Hopefully – we’ll see what happens next time. Met up with Whit and Bill and hit up the expo. Definitely the smallest one that I’ve been to. Not too much going, but always stuff to buy of course.
I headed right for the race bibs to pick mine up. There’s something about seeing that bib, your name on it, your number – makes it so official. Here come the butterflies!! Even more so seeing my number. I looked it up online earlier and knew what it was but not realizing it had a 13 in it!! Good sign, I knew this was meant to be.
We did some walking around and found a restaurant to sit outside and have some beers (I wish!)… water for me and Whit. She had her race coming up in just a few hours. I think by that point we were all a little nervous and just ready to get everything kicked off. I was looking forward to just being at the start of the race in the morning and ready to go.
By Friday night I was a true crazy person. Tom can vouch for that… I’m pretty sure he was looking up flights just in case he needed to head home early. Doubting myself, my body, my training. Honestly wasn’t sure if I could do this, or even wanted to anymore. What is my problem sometimes I wonder??? So I said, Fuck it… here’s to Marathon number 2 – take it or leave it… let’s just do it.
And here’s also to trying to do my race and weekend recaps sooner next time. 🙂
WORKOUT – yoga class, bike – 1 hour, JM (that’s right baby, sheeee’s back!)
Water, wooder, wuter, whater… however you say it. I need some! Running through the water stops at the race… apparently everyone knew I was from up North or from Philly. I would ask if they were handing out ‘wooder’ or powerade. And they would give me a funny look and say ‘you mean whater?’ Yes.
This week will consist of rest and lots of ‘wooder’. I think I hydrated pretty well after the race. To the point that I couldn’t even get drunk on Saturday night because I hydrated too much… which is a good thing. But I made up for that yesterday…
I’ll also be working on my race recap and fun stories from the weekend!! Good times – both fun and race.
You Found Me…. at 4:30am, wide awake. Having a test, traveling and running a marathon all in one week is a lot of stress for
a normal person whatever you’d classify me as. Especially not being ready for this race in a few ways where I’d like to have been. One major one would be getting lots of sleep this week, which obviously isn’t happening since I’m up at night taking crappy random pics with my cell phone camera and listening to music…
I LOVE when my day is all about running!! And yesterday it was indeed.
First off, I sat in about an hour plus of traffic getting out of the city and on 76. I definitely don’t miss the morning commute and rush hour, but it didn’t bother me too much because I had my coffee! And it’s a different story when you are going to go run than when you are on your way to work. For some reason I like driving somewhere to run, packing my stuff, heading out makes it seem more special I guess? Or maybe I like pretending that running is my job? I wish!! Who knows… I am just weird.
Anyway… had a great run at VF (will post about this later). There are a ton of trails at the park, and I haven’t gotten the chance to hit them up yet. One is I’m a little nervous to go out by myself, just because of crazy people lurking around and also of getting lost. But these bad boys are sooooo hard to resist!!…
After the 10miler, I hit up BMRC for some trail sneaks! And other ‘necessities’. Booty shorts (not sure why I got these because I sure won’t be wearing them until summertime. Tan + yellow shorts = perfect summer
attention grabber running gear.) Shot blocks which I am starting to like more than Sharkies. A new running long sleeve shirt, and capris.
I happen to also get a text from my friend, Col who had some running questions for me. I heart talking about running, obvi! So of course I sent a 20page text back, and hopefully was some help. The rest of the day was running some other running related errands. Have to go to REI to find my Stingers, and ended up seeing our Brooks Rep there as well. More running chat and I was off to the Doc’s for PT and more ART. Eat, sleep, breathe, R U N…
WORKOUT – yoga class, bike 1 hour, JM (3lbs)
Week Three Plan: Mon:8miles,JM,yoga Tues:bike30mins,JM,bike1hour,yogadvd Wed:weights(5lbs),10miles(hills) Thurs:yogaclass,bike1hour,JM(3lbs) Fri:yogaclass,18miles Sat:3miles(recovery run),JM Sun:6miles,yoga,JM
In honor of the mountains and the fact that I’ve been antsy to get up there again to get outside and do fun stuff! I thought I’d post this. From a few years ago. Rain, snow, good weather… it’s always a fun time up there. Jake should have used this poncho last weekend when he apparently jumped in the lake… without ME!
WORKOUT – 6 miles (hills), 1 hour bike, yoga dvd, JM (5lbs)
WEEK 2 – Mon:6miles,JM,yoga,bike Tues:spin,JM,yoga Wed:6miles,3miles speed,JM,yoga class Thur:bike,JM,yoga Fri:16miles,yoga Sat:elliptical(recovery),JM,yoga Sun:5miles,JM,yoga